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Saturday, September 17, 2005♥ im not trying to blame anyone.
or trying to act pathetic here.
i mean its nobody's fault that this has happened.
i used to say that you must treasure your memories.
but now.
i just wan to erase all my memories.
i hate my memories.
i hate my past.
i regret of everything i have done.
and what i mean by everything is EVERYTHING.
i just hope to forget it all and get on with my life.
but the process of forgetting is PAINFUL.
i have gave up my hope on everything.
i just want to carry on with my life.
thought of two methods to forget it all faster:
1.go for brainwash(but then later scarlie got side effect jiu wan dan)
2.kill myself (but then sorry;wo pa sii)
so..i wun choose any of them cos i humji
no word can describe how i feel now.
im hurt.
perhaps im just shi bai de yi lei.
everything i do owaes does not go right.
im trying to act strong and happy in front of everbody.
that is bcos i don't want anybody to see me sad.
im forcing myself not to think too much.
but it seems the more i force the more i think.
i just feel that im so useless.
i just cant seem to do anything right.
im ANGRY with MYSELF.
why am i such a failure?
i dont even know why i exist in this world for.
but because of all this i have become stronger.
i no longer fear pain;hardship or what.
feel like torturing myself.
im zi bi.
perhaps should just starve myself.
can jian fei and can self torture.
im sadistic =X
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