kai kai xin xin

2007-03-27T21:04:00.000-07:00

well, i specially republished my template for this post.
it'll be posted for one week, and aft tht.
BLANk.

i'll get straight to e point.

i don't knw if you still hv feelings for me or whtever.
or isit tht you're just taking me as your another hong-ing target.
in any case, im sorry tht i'll be avoiding for the period.
smehw, i just don't feel comfortable talkg to you.
so, sry abt tht.
anw, just wna wish you all e best w the rest of your babes.
and, this post goes out, cos, smehw, perhaps,
aiyahs, nvm. idk.

and btw, i didn't mean not to reply your msg the other night.
i was slpg alrdy.

2007-03-07T19:32:00.000-08:00

okays, i hvn't updated for ages.
just a quick update to keep my blog alive .
last day of t1 tmr. oh man. its real fast.
fri piano prac, sat theory. ahhs.
god damn sucks. i hope i don't fail.
so, CA results this time weren't tht bad.
one underlined. grt improvement laa. (:

2007-02-17T09:29:00.000-08:00

oh grt, all guys are jerks.
fuck it upside down.
i will NEVER trust a guy anymore agn.
thanks so much ahs.

2007-02-11T09:46:00.000-08:00

went alinabubu's house ytd do proj.
finally got my stuffs back home, otherwise i hv to bring it home myself nxt time.
so, we slacked the first few hours thn did it after tht.
went marina south eat at zhen fa.

on the way there.

so, this is the nco's table.

this was our prawn factory with its lady bosses.
and the extra ( the one in purple), who was busy being rubbish bin e whole night.

okays, thts me. with hx's ~~ugly~~ hand.

the crab. -.-

tht's us.
from left, peiyi, linqi, hongxi, alinabubu, lindaR, princess jia mei, me- jiayi.

see the extra behind ? black ghost. zzz

the black ghost cum waiter for e night decided to zi lian. zzz

this was the prawn factory, and the amount of prawns we ate. >.<

the end product.

last but not least,

pooh's on the cam ! (:

wh got chocolate for e class from nz. =D

oh yes oh yes.
smthg else to add ;;

victory belongs to those who believe ! (:

kinda miss the times.
but...
now tht its like tht. there's no turning back for me.
somehow, it still seems to me. i don't ustd you at all.
sry. .

jealousy is a sin. i shall not be jealous.
and you are not mine anymore.
i don't hv e right.

2007-02-07T22:36:00.000-08:00

i know you hate me for what im doing.
but, its seriously not what i want.
do you thk im some * who play with feelgs.
im not.
you thk im not affected by it.
i am, GREALTY.
but.. everythg comes to an end.
and i, hv to accept it now.
i knw sry doesn't make a difference, but still..
im sorry.
sorry for wasting your time.
sorry for eveythg ive done.
someday, you'll ustd why im doing this..
you will..
take care. my pig. ):

2007-02-07T21:13:00.000-08:00

~~fucking~~ g-u-i-l-t.
arghs.

2007-02-07T20:46:00.000-08:00

wtf. ive got a rotting blog man. zzz.
arhhhhhs. i don't wanna get back my chi o'lvl results.
b3 and its dropping hcl for me.
anw kimmy's bias. so i dun give a damn.
ROARS. tmr got tht f-ing bao zhang bao dao. f man.

arghhhhhs
what shld i do laaaaa
the guilt is killingggggggg me
how ?
arghs
pardon me for what i'm doing
cos
for the sake of you and me,
its the best way bahhh
sorry

2007-01-27T23:23:00.000-08:00

went fdc traing this morn.
i reached at 7.30.
man, first time so early.
and i spend like super alot of effort trying to keep my uni straight in e car.
spent 1.5hrs on uni ytd night lahhs.
and din wear it in the end. nvm.
so, i was having o.0 eyes during traing.
thn mummy called me tell me appt at 11.
so had to leave earlier.
went there. waited for quite some time yea.
thn had minor "op" on it.
same as jam tht time.
was bleeding through my eyes and nose after tht. -.-
anddddd...
they say cannot swim for 1 wk.
i so wanted to go swimming this evening de lahhs..
arghs.
thn came home, ate lunch, slpt.
woke up cldn't open left eyes.
kenna glued to each other. ):

~~fuuuckkkkk~~ lahhs...
emo-ing mood is back agn.
))):

2007-01-23T17:27:00.000-08:00

weeee.
got back cumulative frequency test ytd.
guess how much i got ?
48/50.
muahaas. and 2 marks is cos read at wrong place.
cld hv gotten full marks de laaa.
but, ala, not bad alrdy. hahas.
this proves smthg,
not listening in class and not doing maths hw isn't a bad thg after all. XD lols.
anw, i started on my maths hw le.
im a good girl. almost reaching where tooty is lerhs.
i'll finish all of them soon. =P
and learnt a new word from nyy ytd.
fugly. - f-ing ugly. -.-
sch today was fine lahhs.
betsy din come. so no sarcasm today.
and i listened in kimmy's lesson for the first time sia.
woohoo. im a good and studious girl.
lalalaa.
arghs. and left eye smthg wrong. irritating lahhs.
hope it'll go away soon sia.
anw..
going down to jog soon. so, bye ppl.
(:

2007-01-18T16:18:00.000-08:00

rahhhhhs. decided to strike out point 6 of my resolution.
cos its totally impossible not to criticise kimmy.
she lives to let me criticise.
~~fuuuuckeeer.~~
she's so darn ~~fucking~~ bias laa.
arghs. ):

let me decide what i want, please.

can someone please teach me how to trust ?
):

one day................
if she decides to go back to you.
will i be gone from your life just like tht ?

2007-01-14T19:56:00.000-08:00

brrr. its been cold these days.
and i get hungry easily. >.<
cold and hungry.
i feel so like little match girl.
arghs.
and ive been like owing maths homework since sch start.
im gonna do them soon.
SOON. yes, i will do them.
ggaaaahhh. i miss swimming.
i so wanna go swimming.
rain rain go away.

okays, i know its a little late for new year resolutions.
but at least having them is better thn not having.
so here comes:
1. study hard, listen attentively, hand in homework promptly.
2. no gossiping. (at least not during lesson times)
3. lose 5kg.
4. not get involved with b-g stuffs.
5. not to argue with adults.
~~6. not to criticise asshole kimmy.~~
7. play the piano everyday
8. have enough beauty slp everyday (ie. slp early)
9. eat moderately, exercise regularly. (:
1O. learn to speak without vulgarities.

2007-01-10T22:30:00.000-08:00

so darn busy these days.
busy busy busy.
a maths test tmr.
thn must come home practise piano.
p. exams coming soon. arghs.
and piano lessons tmr. sure get scolding agn. =.=
thn friday, training after sch means coming home late agn.
and sat, training plus aop.
tired tired tired. >.<
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2007-01-07T12:04:00.000-08:00

what if it was just a trap. in a flash, it'll all be gone.. . .

emo-ing in progress. . . .. .

btw, in case i hvn't made it clear who i was refering to in my prev post,
im refering to...
JEREMY ONG ZHEN WEI. (:
it was a SPECIAL post DEDICATED. .
could someone ask him to read it ? ((:

2006-12-31T00:53:00.000-08:00

dedicated to my one and only bastard:
((:
thanks for two-timing.
THANKS yea.
it was IMMENSELY APPRECIATED.
anw, think you can become a LIAR next time.
you know, as an OCCUPATION. yeah.
MR. PREVARICATE-R. yes. oh well, what a NICE occupation that is.
hais. feel a pang of melancholy for her you know.
i was purblind. now she's stone-blind.
GOSH. poor thing.
btw, you may stop acting and feigning it now.
apparently, i'm not a three-year old kiddo.
and if you happens to think i am
i can only tell you, you are SO SO SO wrong.
i'm not so stupid you know.
hmm, perhaps i should get you an extra large mirror
PLEASE look into the mirror ( see your stupid damned face ) and reflect.
what the FUCK you are man.
don't make it seem like you are so darn pathetic.
should have ditched you LONG time ago.
but was merely sympathising you.
you know, (go look into the mirror and you'll know why ) yea.
HAAS.
oh great, now the good person doesn't get rewarded.
BOO HOO. POOR ME, someone pity me PLEASE ?
im the PATHETIC one now.
ME ME !
* raises right hand and waves frantically with my left hand pointing towards myself *
two-timed and ~~ditched~~.
BOO HOO HOO. im bawling my hearts out.
hahas. JOKES larhs.
anw, just to let you know.
im doing SO fine now.
YES, even BETTER than before.
WITHOUT YOU that is.
thanks for waking me up. (:
and not to worry for me yarhs.
i have someone else to cheer me up already.
finally, wish you TIAN CHANG DI JIU.
bah !

2006-12-29T20:19:00.000-08:00

FUCK larhs.
bloody disgusting BITCH & BASTARD.
FUCK off from my life.
FUCK.
FUCK.
FUCK.

2006-12-26T22:18:00.000-08:00

long time no blog abt my day ehs.
well, went to sch to buy books.
long time nv slack le, kinda miss it. >.<
thn crap a little in sch thn went home le.
was raining on e way to cp.
hate raining days larh. still must take umbrella.
and sheltered SHORT antenna too.
came home snoozed till 5 plus.
woke up thn did SOME hw.
thn went to watch tv.
dinner- thn hw.
do so long still din complete much. wth larhs.
arghs. traing tmr.
plus home visit. means waking up early.
i dun likeeee.

ARGHS.
getting super freakg emo these days larh.
getting so fucking low self-esteem.
fuck.
sry.
im just SO not sure.
i hope im not a replacement.
i hope im not just someone who wld just add to the number.
if i am, tell me earlier. so tht i know to stop.
stop myself from getting too deep.
im falling for it alrdy.
FUCK.

SOMEONE, please erase my memories for me.
im seriously so sick and tired of it.

2006-12-24T16:21:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE.

well well,

ghy now owes me:
1 fullerton hotel chocolate buffet
2. tiramisu
and still counting ehs. >.<
MUAHAAS.

2006-12-11T22:15:00.000-08:00

BLOGGED. there, heartless antenna. i blogged.

2006-12-05T19:59:00.000-08:00

well well, im back agn.
oh well, fd traing tmr agn. sians.
HONEY.
i need HONEY.

arghs. getting fatter this few days.
climb bukit timah hill anyone ?
let me know if you want.
XP

lalalalalas.

i want tiramisu ! T.T

2006-12-01T19:08:00.000-08:00

im feelg a lil' bored.
so yups, here i am.
lalas.
fd traing tmr. 8. so damned early.
sians.

2006-11-26T11:28:00.000-08:00

back from camp.
sians. now have to resort to rotting at home agn.
lalalas.

forget it, nature shall take its own course.
what is meant to be, is meant to be.
what is meant not to be, will always meant not to be.
i don't see the point of making extra effort for tht.
i just hope i won't regret in the future.
for now, i'm happy with being single. (:

2006-11-23T18:51:00.000-08:00

i guess i shall just get out of this f-g world.
fuck la fuck.

maybe for now.

2006-11-22T10:00:00.000-08:00

lalalas. went sun-tanning ytd. muahaas.
i want toned thighs ! haha.
off to swimming later. thn off to pass gong to them.
maybe slack awhile first thn come home.
suddenly don't look forward to camp at all. rahs !

somehow it feels weird without you.
somehow it feels weird tht i can't turn to you when i have problems.
somehow it feels weird by the thought tht you are not by me.
somehow knowg tht the person to cheer me up agn will nv be you makes me feel lost.
somehow everytime i rcv a msg i'll hope its you.
but i guess i'll have to get use to it all.
get use to the fact tht you aren't mine anymore.
get use to the fact tht i can't lean on you anymore.
get use to the fact tht you won't be by my side.
get use to the fact every msg i rcv will nv be from you.
get use to the fact tht you won't be the one cheering me up.
get use to the fact the every call i rcv will nv be you.
cos me and you, its gone.
i suddenly feel so lost.
but i guess i'll have to get use to it all.

2006-11-20T23:49:00.000-08:00

ROARS. i still can't get over my lost wallet.
not just my money inside.
now i have to pay more money to replace my cards. wtf.

this is the day we part.
it all came to nth after all.
sorry.
the end.

2006-11-15T23:57:00.000-08:00

well well, woke up at 6.4o today.
supposed to go massage leg end up e uncle nv go.
so went with mummy and her friend to e market.
WOOTS. im a good daughter man. =)))
so reached home arnd 1o.45 lidat, took a bathe.
thn took my own sweet time thn headed off to cp.
found them in mac thn went to lrt there for meetg.
today's meetg, so freakg borg, and i had to write minutes.
ROARS.
so i walked here walked there to try to make myself not so bored.
so went to slack agn. sad. becoming slacker soon.
lalalalaas. my MAIN PURPOSE is to blog tht im a good daughter.
MUAHAAS.

treasure me ? idk.
i hope it ain't true. cos i won't know what to do.
i hope it ain't true. cos i guess you won't find happiness here.
i just hope it ain't true. cos im not worthy.

2006-11-10T23:04:00.000-08:00

recently just keep feel like blogging.
hmm, ytd went to e eye specialist to go see for the lump in my left eye.
thn e doc say it will subside in a few days.
PHEW.
anw, they took my degree. thn told me i short-sighted.
and R is 300+, L is 200+
thn after tht take again become lower.
thn take again become higher.
-.-
so after tht when see e doc he drip some kind of eye drop.
thn say after 15 min take degree agn.
so after 15 min took was R- 100+ L- 200+
thn after tht the doc gave me those manual test.
thn he say my eyes very qi guai.
>.<
so after tht drip eye drop again.
thn took degree after 1o min.
the conclusion,
R-25, L-50.
wth man. they say my eye muscle too stressed.
anw, just a few tests came up to 100+ bucks..
waste money laas.
might as well go optician check. FOC.
now, seems like its an after effect of e eye drop or smthg.
got lao hua yan siax.
can't see near.
and its so damn dumb laas. every time see thgs must take 30 cm away.
=.=

anw, today wnt for the civil defence course.
it was exactly the same as the on i went with my mummy and jie jie.
wasted my time.
and so qiao siax, last time teach first aid one this time also teach us first aid.
>.<
and now, i have 2 civil identical civil defence certificate.

o.0

2006-11-07T23:59:00.000-08:00

suddenly had the urge to blog. hurs.
anw, shall blog abt today i guess.
everythg else is borg me out.

well, went to sch for A maths remedial today.
reached there almost at 9.
thn when gettg down from e car saw tht bitch.
and she diao-ed me. guess she was just jealous tht she doesn't have anyone to fetch her.
blehs.
anw, mr ho so cute laas. so cartoon.
didn't do much in the library
guess today just wasn't in e studyg mood.
so after A maths remedial in e library,
me and baobei went to marine parade library to study.
wth. i at there darned bored can.
end up i spent most of my time slping and reading story bks.
thn left e library, went to parkway parade.
go giant buy snacks. =p
bb keep say i like auntie take such a big bag of thgs.
(okays, so im supposed to be on diet ? but, arghs, it doesn't hurt to NIP some snacks huh?)
=)))))))))))))))))))
yea. so went swimming at club after tht.
swam for 3o min nia.
went home, and ate pizza.
there goes my swimming effort.
thn blah blah blah. im gettg to freakg bored lews.
till then barhs ppl.

somehow it just feels so weird ?
somehow, it gives a different feeling.
somehow, small thgs make a big difference.

how long was it since we walked hand in hand down the road ?
how long was it since we talked like there's no tomorrow ?
how long was it since you gave me the feelg tht im being treasured?
T.T

2006-10-21T00:27:00.000-07:00

daddy left ytd to shanghai. was kind of sad. yea. no more hard feelgs. he ain't that bias anymore. he's in fact a great daddy and cook. =) hope he buys me smthg when he gets to US for meetg. =X

2006-10-12T13:23:00.000-07:00

was getting freakg sick of my skin. though i don't blog. oh well. i just got tired of it. so va-voom. a new one comes in. =)

2006-08-18T21:42:00.000-07:00

decided to just open my blog once again, just for the memories. i don't think i will ever be blogging though. just for viewing my history. =) till then.

2006-06-19T23:25:00.000-07:00

haven't gotten to update my blog for a long time. shall pick up from where i stopped.

tuesday-13/06/06
morning woke up to print out a copy of the campfire proposal for everyone to go through and know the sequence of event. then end up cannot find paper. find darn freaking long, end up have to use the yellowed paper. then reached cp at approx 10.30. the meeting was supposedly to start at 10. apparently, the only ones there was linda, jam, hx and kw. the rest all late. i was 4th to reach. then ym came. then alna came after that. then at 11+++ then linqi and peiyi came. the meeting commenced in kfc. some ppl just seem not to care about anything. just push everything to somebody else to do. ownself down there slack. and somemore is impt role one okays. wth. make me so du lan. dunno what they thinking. they don't even care about the campfire programmes alright. all hack care. i print proposal give everybody see also like no use lidat. nobody bothers. waste my time, waste my paper, waste my ink. then ym dunno go there for what also. got proposal give him read he down there kip open his mouth. kp us. then after that suddenly just disappear. wth. then after that ask hx whether can ask her father bring sand back nots. then i estimate is almost same weight as rice lidat. so ask for 6-7 kg niax. end up so darn little. ala, sua. nxt time must go steal it on my own. hahas. at least estimation will be better. after that went of to go buy logs for campfire. went to causeway point. catched a show. then after that went around searching for cheap stuffs. then bought hair net for jam, hx and myself. down there hair net cheaper siax. lols. then after that went to sembawang. cos want go to sembawang de giant. end up down there the giant so darn freaking lan laas. then went back to causeway, go popular buy the construction paper and marker. the price also cheaper. then after that take 161 go back to jam's house there. then take 82 to serangoon central, go there buy lightstick. end up reach there just right the shop close. then faster went to other shops to check out. in the end found another one even cheaper one. then faster rush home to edit and send the finalised proposal to cls. but then after that reach home, daddy ask me eat dinner first. then i keep say later later, he gave me his dulan face. then i explain say i need hand in proposal, he ask me tell give him cls num then he want call cls siax. lucky i dun let him erhs. arbo wait die. then after that speed eat, then bring food go inside room to eat while doing. then after that packed bag and so on. then log list haven't settle. cos the rest like bring 1 item of the things nia like very buay song lidat lews. end up everything i supply. and then worst. the alina forget bring her logs. she nv bring anything for log yarhs. then i have to replace what she was supposed to bring, cos she at jam's house lews. except camera laas. cos mummy slp liaos, then dunno can bring marhs. slept at 2+ in the end.

LTC - DAY 1 ( 14/06/06)
i was the second to reach sch. cos linda went with kw to sch first lews. then realised dao i didn't bring slping bag, vanguard sheet and markers. so ask mama bring for me after she fetch daddy to airport. thank god it was still early. pt was tough, i almost died. we were definitely too slack lerhs. but after that i tried to be not so slack, but apparently, it still seems slack. the evacuation at night was terrible laas. everything was disorganised. at first, 3rd try managed to save weilin out of the fire ground but he slip down the stairs so end up also is casualty. ala, it was bad. and linda was asked to copy 4 copies of coc. she had to use torchlight, then after that dunno why she started crying. then me and her went to find ycs. he ask her stay for interview so i went off first.

LTC - DAY 2 ( 15/06/06 )
2nd day i/c was me. was so scared that i will oversleep. practically every hour wake up 1 time. then check watch. even though got set alarm but scared not light sleeper enough laas. then ended up woke up in time. but then in the end reported only at 6.35. kenna scoldings throughout the day. and i think 2nd day was darn slack laas. anw, sorry to all, cos i think i was pretty harsh when i asked you all to do what you all were supposed to do. 4 + onwards, me linda, jia wen went to do the campfire whilst the others were playing some other games with the sec 1s and 2s and instructors. then at 5.55, me and linda started carrying the table and bench to the foyer for the reception. then chester help us carry bench. darn lazy de laa him. carry halfway jiu suddenly put down the bench and lie on it.then after that sat there for 1hr+. it was super boring alrights. and we could smell the food smell kip come over. aarghs. me and linda were like. how long more do we have to sit there. after that cls took over our duty. then we went to eat. the food cheer we gave was fantastic. truly. it was the best i ever heard. my eardrums were really about to burst. and the the sec 1s and 2s went chaotic. was pretty fucked up cos my committees didn't do what they were supposed to do. finally, the campfire started. i passed to torch to rahim and then stayed there to watch fire. it was supposed to the campfire committee's job. wth. then after that went to the back to watch that the programmes are all well. then suddenly took a look at the fire. it was like so pathetically small. then faster go add wood. no ust, go take kerosene dip the wood. also no use. after that ycs came to help. then it was okay. after that told jw off. cos i told her to watch the fire wnd up she go join in the programmes. the whole event cocked up a little. the emcees didn't know what they were supposed to do. and they din watch over time, end up time over dragged. then the events they also din know what it was about. ala, got lots of comments on the campfire. shan't speak of it here anymore. it may not exactly be very pleasant, though i know the one responsible of the whole not so successful campfire lies on me. ala, sua whatever.

LTC - DAY 3 ( 16/06/ 06 )
5.3o woke up then lazed around. then fall in. had flag raising. then after did campfire cleaning up. i was darn slack laas. muscle super pain then some sort a little lazy to run. end up run machiam walk fast lidat. then we took damn long to clean up. end up PT tio cancelled. anw, after that had breakfast. and then we did the running. from 1A run to art room then down then up then down. i seriously felt like just sitting down on the floor and rot there laas. nvm, anw, i din do that. no matter what also must preserve through. after all already tahan 90% of e camp lews. then after that had first aid and evacuation. first aid was alright. but evac.. shan't say. then after that break camp. didn't had a formal bersurai. sad case. cos of the rain. then after that had to stay back for interview then went kfc to eat. reached home 4 plus lews. then bathe and unpack my things and went off to sleep. the jie jie keep ask me wake up pack my clothes cos going YAP stay overnight. break my sleep laas. wth. anw, mummy came back 8 plus. then i also bth lews. they do all the packing and i went off to sleep. then wait till 11 lidat then they say ready to move off. it seemed like we were doing house moving house in midnight. well, then reached there, end up jie jie and mummy go back home take smthg again. then i go on whole house aircon, then stay in lving room watch tv. cannot stand it laas. down there so much bigger. so shuang.

17/06/06
woke up 9 + then started helping mummy clean up YAP. cos the new tenant moving in lews. then after that slack then on whole house aircon again. then went for lunch at 3 plus. at opp great world city. zion riverside hawker centre. smthg lidat. yeah. and then blah blah blah. i forgot what ever happens next. -.- anw, i skipped a syf training. muscle was darn freaking painful, adding on, those blisters on my foot.

18/06/06
whole day stay at home. trying to do some hw. yeah. evening went over to gu gu's house for maths. and because of financial inabilty, i din want go the evening of enchanting music. apparently, im broke because i haven't claimed my campfire logs' money. =.=

today - 19/06/06
woke up then do some work. then go out with mummy. then eat lunch. back home. did some work. ala, sua laas. the post too long very sian one laas. bth lews.

syf traing tmr. going out on wed. and thurs maybe too. yea. see first. i need the cash first.

2006-06-13T00:23:00.000-07:00

went school at 9+ today. then directly go the behind of the generator see. left 3 pieces of poles nia. then go ask the mr.mak. and he damn guai lan laas. after that went to find tien. then went on a hunt for rahim, apparently, we couldn't find him. anw, went to the GO, wanted to draw red cross room key. and the clerk also sibei guai lan. wth laas. so end up did nth. must wait for tien to finish remedial then get the pit. then i went off to defu lane first lo. let them wait while they do their "poster". anw, they left the fucking "poster" in the NP room. i dunno how they gonna get it back. wth. i not going to care larhs. and at defu lane 10 go so many stores sia. all average price also 1 gallon 7 bucks. waste effort. then call mummy ask her where can buy wood. then she told me defu lane 12. thought of walking there. and lucky din. cos it was like 5 bus-stops away. hahas. and today walked up and down 4 overhead bridge yarhs. so tiring. =.= then after that finally can shou gong. then wanted to go hougang. end up take wrong bus. ended up in bishan. ala, whatever. hahas.

anw, tmr will be another busy day. gotta go steal and drag sand all the way from beach. then have to go buy lots of things. tmr morning still got meeting. sian diao lerhs. i haven't start learning the whatever we have learned in red cross. ala, dun care. wait got time then see how.

just now when jie jie came back, she saw me talking on the phone. then ask me who is my bf. f her laas. anyhow talk shit crap. wait in front of mummy she say see how she get me killed erhs. i will lose my freedom completely erhs. all the tien's stupid darn fault laas. tell her this tell her that. want hai si wo. bloodie hell. then that day jie jie somemore take my phone see msgs. saw what she shouldn't see. fuck laas. i think im going to be gone case soon liaos. i need to keep a low-profile. arghs. so damn fucked up laas !

2006-06-11T12:26:00.000-07:00

shall update on syf traing. weather ytd was darn hot laas. first 10 min of warm-up drills already got alot of casualties liaos. the no. of total casualties think alot siax. anw, i got a mild sunburn. and my back got a criss-cross yarhs. cos the sun shine then shine through the shirt. haas. and im much darker lerhs. =( sobs. yups. and traing was alright except for the sun. and that f-ing maam. bitch laas she. say nan chiau always no people come. then anyhow catch fault. we weren't laughing and she claimed we were laughing. and say what give us last chance what shit one. fuck her laas. then when marching out, my beside that girl ask me where to check dressing from and then the stupid darn maam just behind us. she said: stop talking. you all got thousands dollar worth of asset to talk about isit. damn her. yarhs. we do have. we even have millions alright. wth. i know you are just jealous. bitch bitch bitch. arghs. anw, that desmond sir also very guo fen siax. force us drink so much water after traing. say mustn't waste water. hai me at one go drink 1.2L of water. i finished 3 bottles of 60o ml water alrights. wth. and the bus took 1hr to get back to hq. and i was like. shit. high-tide. then thought debrief awhile only. end up crapped so much. then in the end i bth liaos. i could feel my pee was about to burst out. and my leg was numb liaos. very gao wei. so togther with a also full bladder girl, we went toilet. hahas. and i told desmond sir that our bladder VERY full. lols. and he was laughing. wth. he force us drink so much water de norhs. then i somemore couldn't walk properly cos of my already numbed leg. i was sort of limping to the toilet. lucky 2nd floor gt toilet too. otherwise i would have pee-ed while walking to the toilet. and anw, they didn't give us our milo !! sad case. lucky mummy bought 12 packets for me lews. =))
so after left hq went to ps mum-mum. eat kfc. cos ms. chatterbox wanted to eat that. but surprsingly, ms.chatterbox wasn't very talkative today. think the firing at syf took away all her shooting power. hahahas. after that mama, daddy and jie jie came fetch me. then went to centrepoint cold storage. they originally wanted to go carrefour, but there was too many people. and apparently, daddy didn't get to buy what he wanted. so went to serangoon central. just right for me. hahas. i go explore. find kerosene. lols. haven't been to serangoon central for ages. found kerosene at one of the paint shop, i gallon is 7 bucks only. and that kw said kerosene was at 1.8L for 18 bucks. and its like a huge huge difference. yups. tmr need to go back sch to see how to cut the firewood. then if possible. go to eunos industrial park to find whether got cheaper kerosene. cos the CLS ask me find one. that is like so pathetically troublesome yarhs. what to do. the camp COMMANDING OFFICER is big. hahas. =x (dun kill me when you see this. haas.)

2006-06-09T23:42:00.000-07:00

finally finished my campfire proposal. i chionged for straight 8 hours alright.
wth, and im supposed to be happy that i completed it. apparently, im not. AT ALL. well, i shan't say any further. im off to watch my spirited away.

2006-06-06T12:56:00.000-07:00

phew, a tiring day at syf again. my legs are breaking. woots ~ hahahas. well, woke up at 8 +++ this morn. ( im an " early" bird ) yea, shocking siax. but lazed in bed for awhile then woke up. wash up finish then go laze again. lols. then after that go look for enrolment badge cos that monkey dun have hers. after that called hx, tell her i cant find mine extra eb too. haas. after that go iron red cross uni. took abt 1 hr i think. cos took my own sweet time. iron awhile then go sit down read book, watch abit of tv. well, took darn long to eat my lunch. hahahas. then mummy after that say she fetch me go station. then i jiu okok. anw i lazy walk. but then she go tuo my time so long, call daddy via skype. then ask me go eat finish my nasi lemak first. wahs, hai me in the end late to meet hx siax. arghs. end up still is i ownself walk to station norhs. haiyos. then after that reach dhoby ghaut we spent 15 minutes + in the station sia suay-ing ourselves. putting badges. hahahas. the hx hai me kip laughing. hmmm, then after that chiong all the way to hq. and i was trying my best to type a msg siax. hahas. could hardly see what i was typing. anw, we were a little late. yups. anw, lucky today no shooter. erms, well, shooter meant someone. i shall not say who. just that we had peace today. nobody who kip rapping on and on and on. except ambrose sir that is. aiyos, nxt traing think shooter cum back liaos. sad. hahas. on why i name the person shooter, its bcos the mouth like machine gun lidat yap yap yap yap not stop. hahahahahas. =x then after that had a U-shaped yang tinggi. and today lucky nv solo agn. sat with hx. hahas. then reach hta it started raing. saw that guy from SA who looked like ycs. we kept looking abt for him. lols. then stand at drill shed there do drills. wahs, they give us the space darn pathetically small lorhs. darn it. worst thing is ppl all can sit down, we wear u then cannot sit. cos its white ! arghs. and others had oreo to eat, we didn't have ! sad case. when rain stop had a dry run rehearsal. and the media was supposedly supposed to be there today. but apparently bcos of the rain, they din arrive. hahas. they will be coming down this sat though. so watch the news on this sat. either the 6 or 10 one. lols, sir says its this timing. reached back HQ at 7.3o+ jiu debrief. and they finally gave us the oreos. but i din eat there though. mm, sir says that police academy de ppl, which is from hta. ( the pc that is ) said that red cross drills is the best. hahas, but we all still think there is lots of space for improvement. lols. after end of traing jiu go dhoby ghaut mrt station, and we once again, sia suay-ed ourselves. down there decide whether want remove beret and want go walk awhile nots. scissors paper stone. haas. reached home already almost 9, so ate then bathe. hahas. ala, lazy blog liaos. its already a long post. hahas. tata ppl ! till then (:

2006-06-05T01:23:00.000-07:00

BLANK-
it all ain't going the right way. perhaps the problem just lies on me. im selfish, im petty, im sensitive, im hot-tempered. whatever it is. its all my fault. im sorry. maybe, its bcos i haven't put in all my effort which leads to this ? maybe, im just too unreasonable ? maybe, everything just lies on me ? it always lies on me. bcos i am the one who has all the faults. im unreasonable. im sensitive to what is said to me, but insensitive to others feelings. im ill-tempered. im selfish, everything i think is about me me me. fugg. i don't spare a thought for others at all. its that what i really am ? perhaps, the best word to describe me me me is just, cold-blooded. yeah. im just a damn bloody cold-blooded creature. haas. shldn't have even lived in this world. fine, im just sorry for everything. im heartless, im cold, im whatever fugg you say. my words are harsh. i know that very well. fugg. im just scolding myself. don't mind me. just don't think that anyone or whosever is at fault. it ain't anyone's business that im having this blogged. cos the purpose is just to give myself a downright scolding. let me wake up my idea. the way im treating you, it was a failure. perhaps, i haven't been an understanding person, haven't been a good listening ear, haven't been a good gf. forget it, failure lies on me. one day shld i die, world peace. yeah. its game over. hais.

2006-06-04T22:34:00.000-07:00

hmmm, okayys. let me review on ytd's syf training. well, i was supposedly supposed to meet hx at cp at 7. erms, yea. but i sort off the pang sehed her. or should i say, i pang sehed her. hahas. cos i woke up at 6.59. lols. then faster call her. she nv ans. hai me so worried. then after a few calls then she finally answered. i asked her to go herself. cos wait for me cfm late derhs. hahas. and tell you arhs, i was so worried that kum-gong will lost siax. send her one long long de msg to tell her where to go. scared wait she lost. hahas. then i asked mama to fetch me to gy sec. yups. and i reached 5 mins earlier than hx. and im still pretty guilty over it yarhs. ahems. ehs, nvm. haas. at least she has learnt. not so kum-gong liaos. she reached there in one piece ! hahas.

training started at 8:3o. darn it man. the training was super duper tough siax. somemore together with the damn hot sun. it was like hell for us. the d sir, expect so much from us. he go there sit in canteen, ending then come train us still want complain so much. wth laas. make me hentak till my big toe there almost blister form liao kayys. then my right leg now walk also darn painful. machiam injured dao lidat. arghs. anw, when training was abt to end, running to canteen that time. hx say she vision blur then stomachace. then i see her face is really those lian qing chun bai those kind yarhs. hmmm, then told nic sir. then hx still act strong say nth. after that she sat at the back of everyone. when we go fall in for bersurai that time, she go follow us somemore. haiyos. see her like so weak. somemore still want act strong. *tsk tsk* then blah blah blahs. lazy to go into the details anymore. hahas. anw, tue still got training. hais. goodbye to my not so dark skin. welcome to the dark skin. =(

2006-06-01T22:56:00.000-07:00

happy birthday sweetie ! (:

well,, went out to celebrate jam's birthday today. hahas.
my birthday speech to jam :
hmmm. girl, you have grown a year older. the thoughts of POWERPUFF GIRLS must erase from you. especially your blossom. hahas. i know they are cute though. hmmm. =x anw, stop dota-ing too. it ain't good to get addicted you know. lols. and, most importantly, since you are already a year old older, learn to take control of your emotions, don't let your emotions take over you all the time. the other two of them also need to know this. hahas. you three are affected too easily. its time, to change. yups. most importantly, study hard arhs. brush up on your languages laaaaaas. blahs. till then ! TATA.

2006-06-01T00:52:00.000-07:00

well, yesterday went to the bungalow chalet over at changi. it supposedly supposed to be shared between 2 person. but apparently, it ended up only 1 person bao dao wan. hmmm, reached white sands at around 7 then walked to the bus interchange. then called him. and he reached 2o+ min later. together with ben and mx. then walked from ws to downtown east. they want play pool. -.- well, no identification no entry. hahahas. so end up also no play. then go bk, they watched me eat. yea, the feeling abit weird. mm, then took cab to the chalet. cos the mx want go MOS. and he wanted to bia. yups. then reach the chalet that time at first is like gan jue very weird and extra lidat. but then after that okayy le larhs. then gladys they all keep ask me help them take photos. well, took for them. think i din do a very good job. yea. apologies. i dun make a good photographer. hahahas. then after that played 3 or 4 rounds of majhong. well, i just see and learn. sort of got a rough concept. yeah ! hahahas. have been wanting to learn for years alright. then after went to the whatever its called. the place where alot of people fishing one larhs. stayed there for quite sometime. halfway through ht and vala came. haas. and they were left sleeping at the shelter but they woke up awhile later laas. then stayed on for a long time before going back to the chalet. went back and the sb was still hogging the room with his friends. and they made the room smell of cigarette. wth. after that watched some tv then went to bathe. after that jiu retire go to room 3 liaos. hahas. then blah blah blahs. dozed off around 3 or something like that. forgot. then blahs. im lazy to blog any further. arghs.

2006-05-29T21:59:00.000-07:00

blahs. ain't really in the mood to blog here. there's some other things that i rather have them somewhere else rather than here. yeah. mm, anw. my day was just another typical holiday. so darn boring. yups. =( i hate holidays. blah blah blahs. and i was supposed to go out with jie jie and she dua-ed me. wth. arghs. oh yeah ! i forgot to show off, i got the best improvement "award" from nellie lim. its an overall great improvement award. hahahas. and i got a free tix to wild wild wet. yeps. and jie is pei-ing me go. she pay herself. =))

2006-05-27T20:54:00.000-07:00

for those pondering on what my previous post was. you will nv understand. anw, such a freaking hot day today was. went to home team academy ( somewhere near choa chu kang ). but gathered at HQ first. at SEVEN. tht is so freaking early. anw, i woke up late. but i still made it. apparently, the both of them were late too. traing wasn't as bad as what we all expected. it is only the internal traing that was tough. anw, hta's ground was terribly huge. and nice too. had a combined rehearsal with the other uniform grps. it was fine, except that the weather was darn hot. and the worse thing, i applied sunblock everywhere, everywhere, except my neck. wt. now my neck is off coloured. ala, don't care. blahs. and we only were dismissed somewhere around 3. yups. went to pei the px eat. and, hx, i dun care le larhs. nxt time dun help you lerhs. the mouth cannot stop dun blame me. not i want derhs. hahas. anw, nxt wk we are free.

those. i just don't know how to show it all here. go somewhere else and view it. im sorry that i was selfish. wtf am i thinking ? i don't know. my mind is getting blanker each day.

2006-05-27T18:40:00.000-07:00

the things shown but unknown to all.

2006-05-23T22:08:00.000-07:00

arghs. i feeling so giddy yarhs, ever since pe in school till now. feels terrible. im dying. lols. anw, today wasn't exactly a very nice day. cos after pe i already not feeling well. then whole day through is those want die already those kind. while walking the pasar malam and to cp i keep find poles to hold on to. ( or should i say, i hugged them ) anw, sat down at wherever place. who cares if it was sia-suaying. blahs. felt like vomiting too. don't know whats wrong. arghs. mummy says its bcos i not enough blood. well, i don't know what to do anw. blahs.

2006-05-21T01:28:00.000-07:00

well,, shall review on the happenings of yesterday and today.
basiclly, ytd was alright. the training was alright too. lucky we didn't screw up in anyway.
and,, erms.. i think i made jam cry ytd. =x i sort of told her off. anw, not sure if i was even right. forget it. i guess i was wrong. was just purely stating out some facts anyway. it was too unfair.
anw, after training went to kfc but realised that there was insufficient space, so went over to make to eat. ate filet-o-fish again. after that went back to kfc. the gay, darren, came to find us. haas. blahs.

today.. sucked. was supposed to meet hx and px at 7 this morning at cp. and i didn't set any alarm. hx missed call my hp 4 times siax. then she finally called my home. and it was around 6.12. i told her maybe i wouldn't meet both of them, ask mummy to fetch me instead. but after i put down the phone, thought for a minute and decided that i sould go meet them. otherwise the two fellows would probably get lost. hahas. anw, i was 8 min late cos the darn train didn't wait for me. lols. and syf training, i practically almost died. was tough and the 1st hour i was putting in my best. subsequently, i lost my interest and slacked. what the, i was freaking tired yarhs. and they said that next week's training would be 5-6 times worse than this time derhs. so yarhs, next week would be darn darn darn tiring. and we have to reach rc headquarter at 7. that is like so darn freaking early. blahs.

2006-05-21T00:15:00.000-07:00

well, its 4 days after my birthday, and i have gathered all my presents.
`red cross 5 duo hua ( exclude me is 4 ) : the box with the contents - rose water skin care [ skin toner, conditoning serum, cotrolling jelly, milky cleanser ], shower cologne, tigger mirror, with 15 marshmallows
` dearest : le coq sportif bag
` darling : charmmy kitty necklace
` gong gong : hongbao
` er yi : hongbao
` da yi : hongbao
` shui gu : hongbao
`daddy : mp4 player
` cls : a pair of earrings with a piece of tissue
` lu ting; jam : the tigger [ i think its meant to put handphone barhs ]
think thats all. thanks people. and thanks to those who wished me happy birthday.

2006-05-17T20:52:00.000-07:00

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found out a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

2006-05-17T20:37:00.000-07:00

stop treating me so well. im sorry. im really sorry.

2006-05-16T10:59:00.000-07:00

blahs. its my birthday. arghs. well, shall just brief a simple schedule of my plans for today :
a few minutes later : i will be going out. go to YAP - well, for those who don't know what is this , erms.. i shall just say this is a condo somewhere near orchard. some sort my second home. [ though i don't stay there ]
well, promised to bring jam to the condo during the hols. hahas. ( cos she asked for it )
anw, back to topic. - dunno what mummy wants to do there anw, just following her for the sake of following.
after going to YAP : going ICA to do i/c
1pm : meeting na and jam at cine. generally, the plan is to eat ice-cream buffet over there. yups.
5 plus : on my way back to go out for dinner.
6 plus : think dinner will be at ikea. the food there's nice. especially the swedish meatball. you guys should go try. anw, think its da yi going to treat everybody.
9 plus : go and collect my darn birthday cake. its blackforest. well, i chose it. hopes it will be nice to eat.
1o : cut cake and whatever shit. sit around and just do some crapping. ala, whatever. hahas.

anw, went to the skin specialist ytd. it was a birthday present from mummy. its darn freaking ex yarhs. think everything totalled up to around 200 plus. for just 2 bottles of lotion and 2 teeny weeny container of cream.
well, those who don't know why i went there for. its not a serious problem. and i ain't diseased. i shan't speak of it anw.

thanks to those who have wished me happy birthday. ( in accordance to who wished me first ) - daddy ( early-ated ) nana, jam, wei lin, jia sing, jun jie, dearest, yip chun, darling, jolene, mummy.

and for the presents : mummy, dearest, darling. that is what i have recieved so far. hahas.

2006-05-14T22:36:00.000-07:00

1 mth.

2006-05-13T11:17:00.000-07:00

im keeping my blog alive. by blogging craps. im off.

2006-05-12T17:27:00.000-07:00

second post of the day.
ala, im so f-ing bored. this morning wake up left eye swollen yarhs. ytd is mild mild one. today wake up machiam jj lidat, can hardly open. haas. but anyway, its alright now. and now watching da chang jin and using com. aba, today already watch 5 or 6 episodes liaos. blahs. im off. wweeee ~

2006-05-12T13:17:00.000-07:00

why does it seem that im just blamed for whatever fugg happens. you just push the blame to me. you just feel that im being unreasonable. yes, i may have been a little unreasonable. but, think about it. use your brains please. it ain't the first time alrights. don't you think your request was unreaonable too ? not only me, anybody who hears what you say may just be fucked up alrights. who knows, they may even have just scolded fuck right in front of you. its like you just cry cry cry, and then i have to give in to you all the time ? so what if you are mentally weak. does it actually give you the right to just give unresonable requests. shut your f-ing mouth up and buzz off it thats what you really want. someday, perhaps, i will just give you a downright scolding and scream my heads off at you. who cares if im unreasonable cos you are unreasonable too. i don't mind being said, just to let me feel at ease. please wake up your idea laas. you are no longer a 3-yr old kiddo alrights. you are already a pre-adult. so just think carefully. i have done my reflection, but have you ? i don't think so. you are just still pushing the fucking blame to me. forget it if you don't wish to change. its your future anyway. im going to see how you should survive in the society next time. and probably then, i will ( laughing hysterically at you) look at the state you are going to come to.

2006-05-10T21:08:00.000-07:00

phew. exams are finally over. its time to relax lerhs. hahahas. well,, before the results come out,, i must enjoy to the fullest while i can. cos i may just consider going into hiding to avoid some payments. hahas.
anw, cut my hair today. well, it seems nicer. except that i've got a short fringe. yea, whatever.
and also,, im deciding whether to go to 2h chalet,, or should i go out with jam they all. haiyos. so difficult to decide laas. wth. sua sua. later then think. hahas.

2006-05-08T19:06:00.000-07:00

okayys, some retarded had asked me to blog and consider to waive 2o bucks spy fee. hahas. make it 3o laas. LOLS. please, pretty pretty please. haas. fine, i guess im a little crappy right at the moment. so, wrong timing to blog. cos when i crap, you would see that im blogging crap, as you can see,, words above are all craps. haas.
anw, today's A maths gone case. there goes my 3o bucks i was supposed to have. and the 2o bucks i have to take out. and im seriously crossing my fingers and praying REAL hard that i would pass all my subjects. at least, it would be a no lost, no gain. yups, hope so.

i hate the strawberry bastard.

2006-05-06T13:33:00.000-07:00

im losing my self-esteem. those crude remarks, fugg them. leave me alone , just buzz off.

2006-04-28T18:25:00.000-07:00

wth, realised dao whatever i had blog the other day didn't appear. anw, mid-yrs coming. just realised that for this whole term i had been sleeping in class. nv listened at all, probably will just flunk everything except a maths. i need to study, seriously. but it seems like i just can't get myself to study. everytime i sit down and tell myself i must complete my work, it seems like after 10 mins, i just get up and do something else. just don't seem to focus. gonna restrict myself of forms of entertainment if there is a need. haas. yea sure.. and there something motivating to end the exams soon. my birthday ! lols. its something to look forward to.. so yarhs. i must must start working hard. that is, if i can stick my butt to the chair. i may, if there is seriously a desperate need, contemplate using glue to stick my arse to the darn chair. and, wtf. that day negotiated with jie jie to buy the le coq sportif bag, she pay 70% i pay 30% and she said no. her allowance is like 60% more than me. wth. if i ever do save enough money, i make sure i buy it and not let her use it. blahs.

bye ppl. im off to ' STUDY ' ! haas. wish me lots and lots and lots of luck for my exam pls. lols

anw,, if any of you are interested or whatsoever, my older post( the one which hadn't appeared ) has appeared just below this post. so if you want, you may just scroll down and view it. thks.

2006-04-24T17:47:00.000-07:00

blahs-
im back to blogging again. hais, just cried just now, for some reasons which i don't wish to elaborate.
anw, today, as usual, morning meet and just another boring day at school. but i think jie wei may think i have eaten the wrong medicine today. was freaking hard-working yarhs. btw, i lasted 5 + hrs without hp network. wth. cos sent a msg at 11, then was wondering why till 1+ still no reply. then check, yuan lai msg cannot be send out cos no network. so off , on phone. and tada ! my msgs came in. hahas. anw, kimmy's attitude darn sucks larhs.. i was close to throwing the pen at her face. ala, who cares about that old hag anyway. she's still a MISS. blahs. shan't waste my breath scolding some pathetically useless person.
going off to sleep now. im freaking hell of the tired. haas. till then,, sayonara.

2006-04-23T02:43:00.000-07:00

hellos ppl, im back. hahas. and im once again fugging tired. hahas. was so darn tired last night, fell aslp before 9. and i woke up only at 10.30 this morning. lols. then after that gu gu call ask me afternoon go her house for tuition. after that decided to do some work, but somehow i ended up on the bed and slpt. hahas. for some short 40 minutes. lols, then do hw, and slacked. then went to auntie's house 3.30+.. reached there dunno why end up almost 4 liaos.. tuition till almost 7.. covered one whole chapter of functions.. lols. blah blah blahs. im lazy to blog anymore.. haas. so till then ppl. =)

lalalaas.

2006-04-18T22:36:00.000-07:00

im so fugging tired to just continue doing anything. and after blogging i shall just go to slp. im freaking tired.
anw, watched the (whatever was it's name) show just now. the got joanne peh, pierre png and qiu ze one. realised that within a relationship trust very important, and also being honest with one another. no point hiding anything. yups, noticed this from another show also. blahs-
ala, tmr's physics test.. im dead. chemistry from a1 turn last in class. sad la sad.
aba,, im off to sleep. bYE !

2006-04-14T00:11:00.000-07:00

was late for sch again. arghs. i missed the train by seconds only kayys. wth. then end up both of us late. hahas. sry, hai you late. then today very little people late only, then kevin tan keep laughing at us. what the.. and ong's speech for the late-comers everyday same. hahas. use hand count, leg count. lols. lame ass. blahs-

tmr morning have to go sweep tomb. then after that still have to go for camp meeting, recently dunno why so busy also.. ala. im a busy person. hahas.

sat, supposed to have the ltc gathering thingy. but think i gonna skip it. hahas. already promised someone else to go out liaos. hahas.

anw, im saving upp money for that zinc bag we saw that time. wth. i so far only save less than 20% of it. hahas. whatever. it can wait, lols.

2006-04-09T23:24:00.000-07:00

blahs-
im still single and happy. yup yup yups. i love being single. hope nv have to commit to anything. hahahas. sry to the 3. im just plain selfish. ala ala ala.

anw, congrats to me alrights. my piano grade 5 already ! hahahas..
arghs. im lazy to type anymore. till then barhs.

this will be to my spy-head. hahas. i will continue being your spy. lols. not to worry, just don't avoid me pls.

2006-04-09T23:21:00.000-07:00

2006-04-02T23:19:00.000-07:00

hmmm, just managed to finish the geography brochure. phew ! haas, now still have el presentation. shall do that tmr. anw, tmr have full dress parade again. and i haven't iron my uni. probably will just wake up earlier to iron it. yups. anw, felt awfully bad too. cos of somebody. my rejection was too straightforward a one barhs. hais. i didn't wished for it. sry. the last msg sent to me, gosh, im.. speechless. hais. nvm nvm. what's done can't be undone. and someday somehow, i HAVE to make up my mind on such things. anw, supposed to give him my ans by next sat. perhaps this few days, will be the time to test my feelings. don't think im prepared for any start of bgr. but, just trying to give it a shot once more again barhs. hopefully, it stays.

anw, gtg. till then barhs. bye.

2006-03-30T23:29:00.000-08:00

arghs, im tired larhs. woke up at 2.3oam to iron red cross uniform, then went back to sleep at almost 5. wth, my sleep arhs. i want my sleep ! ARGGHHS. haiyos, then today was early for sch, ytd was late and had to go hall there sing national anthemn. met onto jamie and fiona at the shell traffic light there. then found out there was no need to bring mufti today. wth, stupid me. go bring extra load. anw, just left my track pants in sch and brought back the tee to wash. then blah blah blahs. one boring day of school passed again. anw, did something very evil. hahas, brought a spoiled floppy disk for el presentation just to escape from presenting. okays, it was my idea to bluff the teacher. haas, anw, still have to do it some other time.

anw, sch ended at around 2.2o. chionged to change into full u. wth. and unbelivable, 2 pieces of bread since morning lasted me till 9pm. hahas, take it as on diet larhs. whatever. anw, the rehearsal sucked, rehearsed twice and its started to rain. some mother nature suggested for rain larhs. aha, nvm, at least no need for sun-tanning. lols. anw, after that did some training. and then there was this time when water break then me and hx went to 2nd floor drink water. came down and realised the f-ing stair-gate was shut. bloodie hell. then we tried our best to run. cos i tio stitch, hx stomachache. anw, reached the back of he room. was asked by aba to knock it down. stayed there for less than 1 min though.

anw, called mummy to fetch me after training. cos the mrs tan say she coming at 6.45 for my sister and 7.3o for me. and wth, she came at 7.3o for my sister. make me chiong like siao. and by the time end piano was already around 9. finally had the second meal of the day. anw, think i will just doze off if i continue.

so, till then ppl. tata. ala ala ala. hhahas

2006-03-21T23:37:00.000-08:00

im so darn worried for the two fellows. esp hx, cos her mother doesn't know how to take care of her and refuses to go to hospital. jamie, at least i know that she will be safe in the hospital. hopefully, hx's mum know what she's doing. don't end up something happen to her daughter (touch wood). but she seriously knows nothing of how to look after her daughter. this 2 days becos don't have the 2 fellows. end up i always tio ps. so ask mummy to fetch me today. or i will be pang seh-ed again. the 2 heartless ppl just simply don't care. nv even noticed that i was feeling ps-ed. whatever. they nv noticed many things anw. no elaboration needed here.

anw, wishes for those in platoon B to get well soon.
and take care everyone.
bye.

2006-03-16T21:44:00.000-08:00

oh great ! tomorrow will be the start of hell. that's it. im dead, we're all dead. imagining the "torture" we'll be going through. omg. that will be through 2 long days. just how will we survive it all. im dead, im dead. but perhaps, no point thinking of it in such a pessimistic way. only makes myself feel worse. (im feeling already bad enough) `next 2 longest days of my life. that's bad that's bad. arghs. doomsday ! mayday mayday !! help !
-sighs.

anw, did a very wise choice ytd. finally plucked up my courage to delete all the msgs in my phone. im starting anew and that's that. yups.

help ! im still afraid of the camp. im so darn dead.

2006-03-07T22:51:00.000-08:00

=''(
suddenly, there just seems to be so much emotions. im sad. and that's that. sry for the behaviour the other day. just been thinking, what the f-ing hell problem is with me. just can't figure out what has happened to me. anyway, gave a promise to myself nv to act like that again. it scares people. perhaps, i just try, try to find out the source of this unexplainable sadness. it makes me think much, but i HAVE to get the bottom of this. breaking down everyday ever since i first had a breakdown on sat. thats it, i'm definitely got to get to the bottom of this. once again, sry for my behaviour the other day. its all beyond my control. the roots of all this, i will figure out someday, somehow. hope you guys will understand. just hope so. perhaps, i will sort out everything soon, and my life will be back as per normal. but that, requires time. i will just try, perhaps to sort out all this things quietly, by myself. not affecting anyone, not giving anyone any trouble, and not letting others to worry about me.

anw, read cls's blog just now. only one word to describe, im touched. yups. cried. but, gave myself a promise too. to work hard on achieving those. i will, try my best, in everything.

that's all. hope everthing will be fine soon. *keeping my fingers crossed*

2006-02-28T23:18:00.000-08:00

hellos people !
finally common tests are over huhs. what a relieve. *phew* but think i will probably flunk majority of my subjects. yups. majority.
had a 7 hours long dream of the guy with the capital letter N on friday night.chaotic dream, even had an interval in between cause i woke up in the middle of the dream. (i had to pee). well, most unforgettable part was the blog that scene. don't wish to elaborate much thou. anyway, this dream made me think back of the times during the holidays. but, what a pity, dreams are opposite of reality. so, there goes my wonderful dreamland. hahas. great huhs. *claps* that guy, li hai. just 2 weeks knowing him can actually make him so unforgettable. must have been a great guy huhs.nahs. it doesn't matter. that chapter of my life had long ended. so, no point looking back. i don't wish to look back either. tends to have terrible flashbacks instead. anyway, hope that he doesn't take it too hard now that he had been retained.
anyway, dad is coming back in another two days' time. that is, thursday. and this time, its FOR GOOD. i emphasise once again, it is FOR GOOD. ain't looking forward to it at all. not that im a rebellious child who hates her parents. nahs. im not one of those. just that my dad just controls me too much. and that, simply sucks. and perhaps, it may be also pure biasness against me. yups. still rmb on his last trip back, i was scolded just on the day he came back. arghs. im still his daughter, but there seems to be unfair treatment. whatever. don't wish to be his BELOVED daughter anyway.

2006-02-19T14:43:00.000-08:00

ytd met jam,alina,jolene, kw at sgn station.i was late.apologies. then we took train go outram. change to ew line, then took to lavendar. go pei the kw go army market mahs. anyway, kw, i was not red when i saw that thing okays. arghs. reach there jolene treat all of us ice-cream. thks jolene arhs. army market was darn hot. cannot stand. my sweat glands too active. sweat alot siax. then i also shun bian bought my uniform cover. my old derhs zip spoil already. walked around a few times before kw bought his cap. jolene treat us all sugarcane drink again. lols. then took mrt to tm go watch i not stupid too. the rest of them is watch 2nd time, except me & kw is 1st time. then reach there around 3.15. 3.2o show no more tix. so in e end had to buy 4.0o derhs. then still got time left wadx. so went pastamania eat. this time is alina treat. me;jam;kw;alina eat only. jolene and her guy friend din. the 4 of us all don't eat pineapples. so end up left with the pineapples. and kw + jam did this :

so dumb rites. lols. kw did the main layout and jam added the tobasco and pepper. then in the movie only me and alina cried. sad case. the rest all the heartless ppl. was darn urgent after the movie. after that realised already 6.2o. and i had dinner & dance at 7.0o. in orchard. then mum and sis chionged all the way down to fetch me. had to change in the car, while getting scolded. by the time reach there was almost 8. shit. so pai seh siax. im supposed to be banned from using com, but since no ones home, nobody cares. haas. anw, gtg. (before someone comes home and i will be dead) bye ppl. and kw, good story-teller arhs.

2006-02-18T00:32:00.000-08:00

im so darn exhausted now mans.
not enough slp laas.
tmr will be a great day to replace my slp.
lmao
so let's talk about today.

didn't meet hx in the morn cause her dad fetch.
so decided that i shall go sch later,
at least there is not such need to rush and chiong.
reached sch reasonably late/early.
wasn't late and wasn't early.
lols. first 2 periods.
the suckiest teacher.
chinese. -ms.kim
darn sucks laas.
she spent more than half a period talking, crapping,
and left around 1 period for us to do cl func. writing.
was supposed to hand in by end of today,
but the very minimal percentage of us (including me)
decided to hand in on monday,
though there will be a deduction of 3 or 5 marks.
whatever laas. i don't give a damn for that teacher anyway.
darn bias.
she commented that my file wasn't filed properly, and claimed im a messy girl.
wth.
i haven't file properly only wads.
say until i lidat.
english did some slacking.
was asked to form grps of 4 to discuss about feelings.
and my grp was made up of four guys and ONE girl.
anw, our grp won e prize in the end.
mok gave us 3 sticks of frutips
but i decided to let e guys have them all.
a maths sucked.
had e test and i think the max i will get is 5.
that is upon 1o0.
sua. give up le laas.
the goh always in class talk so soft.
can't even hear him.
understand what talking him is a miracle.
probably i will need more maths tuition lerhs.
then recess didn't eat.
cos dunno why too rush.
okays, then was history.
realised i didn't do finish nellie lim's hw.
so copied some answers directly.
okays, i admit. im a lazy girl.
and she gave out sbq again.
hate doing sbq mans.
nvm. nvm.
chem went to lab.
we did one experiment on our own,
the purification of salt water + sand.
my salt i got back was exactly 2.5og.
dunno if its correct.
after sch mommie came to fetch me back home.
then she fetched me back sch.
cos i say got alot of things to carry mahs.
today training sort of slacked a little.
darn tired. unknown reason.
did one rehearsal of the parade.
and my left foot darn painful.
nvm. i love pain. im a sadistic.
haas.
went to kfc to eat.
but didn't eat kfc's food.
me and linda went to buy sushi.
realise my appetite actually quite big.
ate 3 packets.
linda ate 2.
after that went walking around before we went to structure park.
played there a lil' crapped a lil'
and went back home.
by the time i reach home already around 11+
so yarhs.
im exhausted too already.
so, its SLEEPLING TIME !
BYE !

anw, ytd sms-ed to wish him happy biirthday.
and he actually asked who am i,
which means only ONE thing.
he deleted my no. from his phone already.
wahs. sian diao.

2006-02-14T21:33:00.000-08:00

happy valentine's day !!

okayys,,
ytd spent around 5-6 hrs baking cookies
with my sis as the chief baker though
then packed into 5 packets for manda;hx;alina;jam;linda
13 packets for others
plus one packet (the largest) for someone who's b'day just over
yup yup yups
total i think i gave away more than 7o pieces of cookies
then managed to pass all the cookies during recess
realised that i missed out on some ppl too
lucky i made extras
lols
recieved two tigger key chains from manda & jam
and plenty of sweets and chocolates from others
hees.
anw,, tmr got red cross
so gonna pack up and slp
i slpt late last night for the sake of cookies
waahaas.
need to store energy for tmr
so gonna end here.
btw,, note to jamie
i can't tagg you blog lehs !

2006-02-11T00:57:00.000-08:00

a quick update on how im doing for e whole week
monday[o6/o2]- as i said, we had e maths and physics test
was fine for e maths but physics really sucks yarhs
was free from tests on tuesday
had eng test on wed and chem test on thurs
got back chem today
was okay,, below my standard thou
lols
got 21.5/3o
could have been better if i didn't grab buddha's leg
finally,, today.
had been having cough for e whole week
today's one was worst
was coughing non-stop in class
darn it
lucky brought strepsils or i would have died
okays, it wouldn't be that bad but it saved me
at least it did sooth my throat a little
had training aft sch,,
not much comments on it except that was wasting pretty much time
sat that for i think more than 45 mins?
but today was damn in the mood to do footdrill
so i think i performed not that badly
but think need to build up a lil more on my self-confidence
cause got one time everyone including the 1o1% red cross lover did wrong
then i at first didn't shift
but cos no confident so in the end also shift
ate at kfc
getting pretty sick of kfc already
was actually planning go yoshi
cos not so much fried food
fried food bad for my throat yarhs
but still sticked to kfc
*yawns*
tmr still got red cross
hopefully i will wake up ON TIME
ive got a packed day ahead mans
gonna need the energy
morn-red cross
afternoon-go shopping + watch movie
night-go watch kh kor's performance
praying hard that i won't doze off somewhere
LOLS
bye ppl
=)
ps. it seems like im gonna make this com spoil also [lmao]

2006-02-05T18:24:00.000-08:00

waahaas
gonna make a quick post
gotta go out soon yarhs
hmmm,,
was studying at home for almost the whole day today
tmr got physics and e maths test yarhs
think i should be able to make it for e maths
but then physics arhs
have to pray darn hard
LOLS
going to ah ma house later for 'lou hei'
dad went back to shanghai last night so im free once again
GREAT !!
ytd went with manda deariie to np
we went so darn early
was like 9:3o then there was nobody there except us
so we went to e toilet and stayed there for around 1o minutes
and when went out there was a number of ppl already
then went go see the course counselling
then walk around and asked questions
the manda arhs
keep asking if study that course got what job options
she want those kind earn alot of money those kind yarhs
lazy pig erh she
lols
then we sat the bus take us round the campus
if only manda didn't have to leave at 1 horhs
we could have explored all e schools lorhs
so in the end we only explored the business school
cause it was just opposite the convention centre
at least we got a rough idea of the courses available
still got a long way to go anyway
hahas
okayys
gtg ..
tata ~ !

2006-02-03T22:53:00.000-08:00

haven't touch de com for more than two weeks man
com down larhs
and this stupid darn com im using is so lagg
sucks larhs
okays,, im lazy to blog anymore
no mood to blog.
haas
bye for now ppl
tata ~ =)
btw,, happy birthday km !!
LOLS~

2006-01-14T01:16:00.000-08:00

FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN
-aaargghhs
met hx at shell there de traffic light again
and she was late for 9 mins
make me wait there for her
then walk with her to sch together with yh
and some black cat crossed our path
so its,, friday the thirteen plus a black cat
not a good sign huhs
and my day wasn't that lucky after all
first two periods was mt
that ms.kim again
she spent 45 mins crapping and crapping
then left 2o mins for us to do work
me;hx;linda were chatting chatting
dun care that ms.kim
she sucks anyway
and then was english
mr.mok brought us to com lab
search for some sort of technology thingy
then maths spent 1 hour doing 4 a maths question
gonna give up on a maths soon
my brain cells will die soon form the excessive use
lols
then recess was chionging maths too
after that went down eat
and that jamie drip some gravy on my wallet
this is the first suay thing that happened
then after that on e way up
i almost fell at e stairs
or should i say i tripped and landed on my hands
and suay suay on top ppl look down
-aaaarrrgghhhhss
then history lesson that linda tan spoil my highlighter cap
then i spin spin spin the highlighter
*pphhheeeewwww* flew e highlighter
and my blouse kenna the ink
so altogether got 3 suay things happen
+ other small things
haiyos !!
=/

2006-01-07T22:03:00.000-08:00

HAIIS
if i could , , i want to turn back time.

2006-01-03T19:18:00.000-08:00

first day of school,,
pretty okay,,
nellie lim is our form,,
heard from jie she not bad laas
then tien is our chem teacher
great!!
haas,,
then the rest all also okay de lo
haiyos! this yr can't go school late liaos,,
that nellie cfm wun give chance one,,
oh great oh great,,
blehs-
miss ms.d tan mans,,
at least she wun so strict,,
-aarrgghhh
then after school got rc meeting,,
sec 2s let off first,,
so while waiting for hx they all i go toilet lo,,
then on e way to e toilet pass by e canteen that time,,
so km sitting in e canteen,,
after that don't dare to walk back,,
lols ..
haisx,, it seems like im given cold shoulder?
SIGHS-

i am to make a choice ,,
but im confused,,
i know i can't be holding on to everything forever,,
but i don't even know how i feel deep inside?
i don't know which is the one who has a place in me
perhaps,, i shouldn't bother so much anymore,,
im learning how to let go of everything bit by bit,,
how i wish i could go back to when i was sec.1
when i was so innocent,,
there was only crush but no relationships,,
that is the life i want
i don't want to be bothered by these things anymore,,
i need time to think through it all,,
and if there is really such a need,,
i will learn to let go of everything all at once,,
HAIS-

2005-12-31T00:38:00.000-08:00

woke up at 6.1o today
then did preparation and so on,,
went to meet hx & jamie at bus-stop
oh great! i was early,,
okayys,,then went to meet linda
then reach school
blah blah blah,,
okayys,, today's training made me a shade tanner
and i need a foot massage siax
my toes are darn painful
and my heels also painful
and the toes is ever since i come back from shanghai jiu pain
then go training become worst
but today's training haii hao lo
cos i like footdrill
lols~!
then went home around 3++
slp awhile then tio awaken by jie
she ask me go prepare lo
then took a train down to chinatown
went mac to buy drinks for daddy they all
had some financial problem but settled in end
(we used ez-link siax)
then went to e teochew restaurant at amoy st there
so qiao siax
is jie's friend de parents open de restaurant
and also dad's friend friend,,
so its a small small world..
haas,,
the meal totalled to $500+ i think
had sharksfin too,, lols~
and had extra ingredient inside siax
something very nutritious,,
ants !!
haas
one only i mean
okayys,, tmr going sentosa,,
will be one long day siax
night time got dinner again,,
-aaarrrrgghhh

2005-12-26T18:34:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BOXING DAY .. =)

was back on e 24th morning
shanghai was great
darn cold,, but nice yarhs
had a try on e maglev train,,
cool yarhs..
but expensive ride,,
hahas,,
bought lots of stuffs too,,
great place,,
daddy's house there was nice
very cosy de yarhs
oh great,, im missing shanghai already..
okayys,, bought chocolates for everyone..
HAHAS,,

christmas eve went over to grandma's house for dinner
had turkey, ham, roast lamb .. ..
nice meal
christmas day decided to eat something lighter,,
ended up having fruit platter at home with beef stew..
at least the fruits were healthy,,
LOL

daddy is now back in s'pore
oh great,, there goes my freedom..
wth,,
and next year he comes back for good
how WONDERFUL,,
wtf,, the thought of it sucks..
nvm,,

='(((
i have choices
but why does it seem im so unsatisfied with everything,,
everything just simply sucks
perhaps i do try,,
acting as though im fine,,
but deep inside my mind so many things are going through
and this feeling ain't great at all
i just can't make up my mind,,
im trying to cling on to whatever i can
but it seems like im being so unfair
im too selfish,,
and i hate myself because of that
why can't i just make up my mind and settle it all
im like juggling on a few boats at once,,
and perhaps,,one day,,,
it may all just sink..
wouldn't that be wonderful
how great it would be
after all i may just drown
and great!!
after all im just a bitch or whatever you call it
not worthy of anybody to notice or whatsoever,,
perhaps,, if i should die..
nobody will notice?
what a "WONDERFUL" world..

2005-12-11T02:36:00.000-08:00

heys peeps,,
i will be gone from today to 24th yarhs,,
going shanghai lerhs
don't miss me alrights~
HAHAS

2005-12-07T06:42:00.000-08:00

haven't updated for quite sometime lerhs.
and using less of computer.
im a good girl.
weehees~
counting down another 3 days ++ before i go shanghai.
i leaving on 11th de morning.
so darned excited yarhs.
gonna miss you guys!!
will be back only on e 24th.
just in time for christmas here yarhs.
=))))

went out with jie;harn;qing yesterday.
went to plaza sin first.
saw jolene at e mrt station.
waved to her and she sotong de larhs.
turn behind and see isit wave to behind de ppl.
then gong-gong wave back to me.
-.-
went to down there de roxy shop.
-aarrghhhss
saw the wallet so nice.
but expensive siax.
abt $3o lorhs.
can only dream of having it.
perhaps next when sch start then will have money buy lerhs.
hahas, now can only dream.
went to heeren after that,
go there until abit sianned liao lorhs.
then went to bugis street,
okayys,, great,
why must my shopping addiction act upp,
when i have financial inability.
haiis,now i can just window shop yarhs.
=(((
hope go shanghai can buy lots and lots of stuff.=D

tomorrow going jun jie de chalet,
not staying,
sianned,still thought maybe can tonwhat the,
and that jamie lim mei mei say reach home before 11.
that is so darned early yarhs.
want go home also should 2+ then reach home mahs.
go home so early,
no fun siax.
sua``no choice larhs.

SIGHS-
im not ready for everything,
i don't wish to hurt anybody.
i said i will give everybody a fair chance,
but it doesn't seem that im doing that?
im so confused,
im so tired of thinking,
im tired of working out my feelings,
im shut out in my own world
hope everybody can just forget that i even existed?
stop treating me so good,
i don't think im worth it anyway,
im not a good woman,
im not worthy of anybody
MY MENTAL BREAKDOWN,,
WOULD MARK THE END OF MS.HUANG JIAYI.
pls send your condolences.thank you.

HAHAHAS,,

my memory is failing me,,
SAVE ME!!!

2005-11-28T22:31:00.000-08:00

-.<
hellos people,,
im back,,
okayys,,let's see..
camp was not bad,,
but didn't learn much.
but really trained us physically yarhs
.esp that duck-walk..
make me muscle ache dao siao..
then e rest was okayy lorhs..
hahas,,and in 2 days after camp i slpt for 23.5hrs..

-sighs
feel s0 guilty,,
that day break camp 2+
jie got call me..
but i din answer,,
after that realised that she had wanted to tell me that lucky was going to be put to sleep
and she had wanted to ask me whether i want go see lucky for e last time.
felt so damned bad about it..
i didn't even get to see lucky for one last time..
perhaps,,dogs name lucky aren't that lucky after all..
watched 1o1 dalmations on that day lucky passed on,,
the dog that was trapped was also named lucky..
perhaps,, some may say its just a dog..
but to me,, i already have a bond btwn him..
i still rmb the day when lucky came..
was still staying in my aunt's house that time..
and we kept him in the travel bag while bringing him home..
and he didn't live a very lucky life either,,
although what he eat was all real meat,,
but,, he got cataract and has become blind..
first is the right eyes,,then it became both eyes..
so for e last few months and weeks,,
he have been banging onto things..
i miss lucky!!
i want to turn the time back..
*sobs*
and there is a new dog who has taken over lucky's place..
a dog by the name if bell-bell..
and my cousin got 2 dogs siax..
then now,, don-don keeps chasing bell-bell,,
okayys,,he is plain horny..
gosh,,he even drooled alright..teek0..

im giving everyone a fair chance starting from now,,
i dun wan to regret making any wrong decisions..

2005-11-20T13:20:00.000-08:00

haven't been bl0gging e las few days,,
im t0o lazy le laaass >.<
and now its home alone for me
ytd went out stella jie;harn;qing;kuang yu;jie
go great world city watch harry potter
quite disappointing laas
cos alot of parts cut off
but still quite nice
oh great,, im contradicting myself
okayys,,overall,, it was NICE
and 2 1/2 hrs dun seem like 2 1/2 hrs
watched e 4.15 one
but 2o mins adverts
so e movie started at 4.35
then after that shop shop shop around
then met kuang hong k0r;harn's mom & dad;sy jie's and kh k0r's mom & dad.
ate at kenny roger's
then after that sy jie and kh k0r de friends came
is the nick shen and his girlfriend
then my auntie and uncle said that is stella jie zuo meii p0 one
LOL
then after walked around again
bought some things
then went back to harn's house
went back home after that l0

btw,,saturday night that one was not just ou de yang,,
my mom bluffed me
it was e 'ying yue feng 2oo5 yan chang huii'
is got li sheng jie;joi chua;zhang dong liang;ocean & jolin
NICE concert.
HAAS
especially when j0lin that part =))

2005-11-13T00:18:00.000-08:00

okays. haven't used e com for FIVE days.
WAH! haas. cun believe i can last so long ya.
so lets review what i have done in e last five days :

>8.11.o5-tues
morn went to take passport photo.
then went to eat lunch.
after lunch met manda;nette;karyn;rene;yj;hw;elysia;geraldine
(sry if i left out anyone) met them at cp.
i was late.heh.eat lunch mahs.
hmmm. then jiu t0ok 89 to downtown east.
then went to chalet.
was kinda bored at first.
played dai di for awhile.
that pathetic air-con in e room is TERRIBLE.
i was sweating like hell in that room orites.
then after that went to whitesands with manda.
she want go there buy her giordano tee-hot pink;black;maroon.
nice ya.hehe.i also want liaos. weets~
then we explored e area round e chalet.
roam here roam there lo.
then had bbq at night.
didn't eat much.then only wm;ju;manda;wq;hui;ky & me stayed overnight.
chatted till around 4+.
then some went to slp.
then i jiu listen music. around 5+ plus then slp.

>9.11.o5-wed
woke up around 6.
went to downtown east there de foodcourt eat breakfast.
but me and manda din eat, no appetite narhs.
so we two drank coffee niax. for energy.
this was e day that was most fun barhs.
went back to chalet and waited for other ppl to come.
then was downstairs watching tv.
then some nette they all came.then some boys came.
des brought his stead.
haas.then when most ppl come liaos we jiu go rent bike.
only ss and manda rented blades.
manda ask me to blade to0.
but i scared later fall down sia suay.
in front of so many classmates=chao ji wu di sia suay.
so end up she and ss only lo.
so funny.des tried ss de skates.OMG. funny yarhs.
okays.and i realised that des bian hao liaos.
he somemore helped support ss orites.
(ss doesn't know how to skate, he seemed like a new-born animal-you know those kind when their legs are wobbly then cannot stand straight those kind)
hahahahahas.
and ss and manda looked like *ahems* from far.
somemore ss wore blue, manda wore pink.OMG.
chao ji wu di look like *ahems*
then went bowling after that.
played 2 games.long time nv bowl liaos.
but i haven't lost my skills. *snickers*
im considered not bad liao lorhs.
(jamie, pls dun show off you bowling skills hao bu hao.
i know you li hai le larhs.)
then after that went back chalet.
played dai di then rest for a while.
after that helped fz;des start fire.
e other guys used e whole box of fire-starter.
CRAZY.i use 3 nia they use until so many.
so e 3 of us plan hao not to use more than 7.
then went quite well.
hui came to help to0.
they keep suan-ing me de lorhs.
fine.nvm.
then others keep saying i nv dui rc de lian.
haas.cos charlene din help mahs.NP de nehs.
and some idiot in e chalet complained that very smoky.
stupid larhs.you want complain then dun eat larhs.
somemore want e first satay we bbq.
you should know who you are.sucker.
then some, when we started bbq-ing satay.
like hungry ghost lidat faster come order.
wth` bu jian de when we start fire that time anybody came ya.
then after that hui;pris;des;fz;yh;will;me played games.
to0 long for me to elaborate liaos.
but i was wet in e end.
and sweat + water = stinky
so that particular clothes of mine was chao ji chou.
went to arcade
played daytona.that stupid third machine sucks larhs.
its like e steering wheel tries to control.
then i very difficult to control.
stupid de lorhs.
then after that went back chalet.
bathe then watch tv.
then got more ppl stayed overnight.
manda;wm;ju;hui;pris;ky;char;yy;will;ss;ws;hs;me
then wm;ju slpt first
e rest of us went upstairs to play games.
then end up ws and hs slpt.
then left e rest of us play game.
char watched us.then stupid will phua and yy kip ji siao-ing lorhs.
played murderer and stupid will kip saying me and ky is murderer.
say ky got innocent face, cunning inside.
then say i got suspicious face and cunning inside.
feel like killing him larhs.
then played till 4.3o.went for night-morn walk.
walk till very long lehs.
and on the way, we met a lot of little friends.
earthworms!!
came back around 6+
majority of us slpt.
except pris and e boys upstairs playing.
one girl and all boys.
what would you think? i dun wish to say out.

>10.11.o5-thurs
woke up around 7 plus
then hui;ju;ky go buy breakfast
but in end also nv.
then end up everybody stone.
dunno why also lehs.
stone for very long time lehs.
then some of us started clearing e chalet.
and then pris play with e boys again.
she din even help in clearing lorhs.
wth`
then checked out around 11+
went back home immediately slpt.
then mama bought food come back ask me wake up eat.
after that i go back slp again.
then went out for dinner and collect e photos.
came home immediately slp again.haas.

>11.11.o5-fri
woke up 7++
jamie morn cor me.
but then cor me second time then i woke up.
then jiu want go meet them.
and i forgot to bring my hp.
and i was already in e station.
almost tap card liaos.went back home to take.
and it was already around 9.o6 so faster call jamie.
then she say forget it le larhs.
they go sch first after that then i go meet them.
so i go back lie on my bed lo.
then 9.35 lidat they call me ask me go cp meet them.
then 9.45 they call me ask me why i so long.
DOTS. how am i supposed to reach cp in 1o mins?
then they jiu ask me meet at hg station lo.
then reached hg station they ask me go cp meet.
cos linda suddenly can go out liaos.
so go cp lorhs.
then after that went to alina's house
then.. BLAH-
im simply to0 lazy to carry on anymore.

im slping so much this few days.
gosh.
everyday slp more than 12 hrs neh.
haas. nvm. slping is very HEALTHY.
w0ots~

2005-11-07T23:38:00.000-08:00

well , ,
i haven't gotten enough slp
gosh.
woke upp so early today.
at 7.3o
even before jamie morn cor me.
but lazed in bed until jamie cored me.
and till now i still have not rcv e msg tha jamie send to me in e morn
i think my phone sot liaos
cos got e msg sound
but no msg come in
PATHETIC PHONE
haas
then went to meet at cp
wasn't late , jamie was early.
then walked to sch w/o anything special happening
found a spot in e canteen and then sat down and started to
TALK
okays , that was not the purpose of us going to school at all
we were supposed to study for rc exam
but i think i did manage a little?
[that is I THINK i did]
and then linda went back home at 11
left me ; hx ; alina ; jamie
decided to do fd
and someone whose name starts with j and ends with e
kept complaining that the sun was HOT
okays , e sun WAS HOT
but there was shade [although e shade kept growing lesser & lesser]
FINE. and then realised that i forgotten alot of drills liaos.
i need to go practise more lerhs.
then after that sat down and went through
ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ [phonetic alphabets for radio communication , that is]
and also field siganls and rank system
haas. i just realise that ive got GOOD MEMORY
wahahas.
TERRIFIC MEMORY
im good in memorising!!
weehees~
then after that we were deciding whose house to go
hx's house ; jamie's house ; alina's house ; mine
then in e end
went to my house
LMAO
ask my mama to pack my room first
cos it was terribly messy
and then played game of life
i think i was e person with e least money barhs
forget it
then practise evac , a few only [im lazy to elaborate]
and then TRIED to teach hx how to play e piano
but it seems like to no avail
then they went of 5+
BLAH.
im lazy to type anymore

btw ,, e date for me going to shanghai has been fixed
it will be from 11/12-23/12
pleaded v long then finally got this EXCELLENT date
hees.
im happy with it

wo0ts~
looking forwad to class chalet tmr
heh heh
*praying real hard that it will be fun. . .
weehehes~

2005-11-03T18:33:00.000-08:00

hmmm.
today is a GOOD day.
LOL.
woke up around 12.
im turning more and more pigg lerhs.
haas.and its not a good thing.
lmao.
went to my ah gong's house to pass something.
then on e way saw those dan gee.
scary.
they pierce e thick needle through thier cheeks.
and the chair they were supposedly supposed to sit on had blades and sharp pins on it.
and one of them the cheek bleeding somemore.
OMG.
that sight was.-speechless.
then went to wisma.
go food republic eat.
saw one of our sch de guy working at e desert store.
what's his name?eh.nvm.i forgot.
then also saw JAMES.
e REAL JAMES.
not jamie's james.
LOL.
his gf very de chao lao. =X
GREAT DAY.hees.

went to taka to search for my shoes.
but wasn't nice.
so din buy.
came home.
was chatting on e phone.
with poor jamie who is COOPED at home.
like e rotting duck lidat.
LOL.

manda today go genting.
gonna miss her man.
AWWW..
surprised that i got so many visitors to my blog.
so touched.
LOL.

sort of looking forward to tmr's training.
hope its fun. =)))
but maybe if tmr too sick.
then mommie cfm wun let me go derhs. =((((
and promotion exams are coming too.
i sure die.
JAMIE.must save me horhs.

stupid larhs.
mommie have been kp-ing me since sch end.
kip asking me when is rc camp.
cos she needs to book air ticket to shanghai.
scared later no ticket.
then its like
how i know when?
stupid lorhs.
its not even i plan derhs.
i scared later end up arhs.
mommy pek chek dun let me go camp.
then we fly off before camp.
then i will be SO DARN DEAD.
sighs-

2005-10-31T16:06:00.000-08:00

third post of e day
AND
im really so damned damned bored
OMG
i've got nothing to do
and i ain't happy doing nothing
LOL
im crapping again
gosh.
everyday crap like that will become crapper
crapper then become lamer
serious problem here
i don't want to become crapper
and worst, no way im becoming a lamer
LOL
im seriously crapping
haas
im dying..
- AAARRRGGGHH!!
... of BOREDOM
LMAO

oooppsssx..
its 4.0o oredi
time for my nap
SLEEPING TIME!!!
weeets~
and it also means time for my medicine
BLEHS-
nobody knows that im not going to eat them
so SHHHH..
don't say out okays.. *wink wink winks*
haas
TATA ppl
HOPE YOU GUYS OUT THERE AREN'T AS BORED AS I AM
cos it ain't nice being bored~
LOL

2005-10-31T15:12:00.000-08:00

e song you are listening to
on my blog
not on your media player
is what im learning to play on e piano
lao mao

2005-10-31T13:59:00.000-08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEOPLE !!

its school holidays lerhs
but its NOT nice at all
i rather go to school
AAARRGGHH
im dying of boredom orites
and the worst thing is that im sick
aarrgghh
im coughing and sneezing pratically every minute
wth`
why so suay derhs
jus right holiday jiu sick
friday wrist pain somemore
couldn't write for 2 days
lucky now almost okay lerhs
phew~

looking forward to 8 ; 9 ;1o nov
cos its our class chalet
woots~
praying hard that it turns out to be fun
at first din want to go
but saw the way manda cried on friday
decided to go
cos after all it will be the last time 2h will be together this yr
but im in financial difficulty now
must ask my mommy to sponsor me
LOL

played piano from 11 to 12.3o today
OMG
im growing to love my piano
haas
its bcos im bored not bcos i love piano
LMAO
self-learning a few pieces
hahahas
im so cong ming
but then looks like learn until no results come out lidat
nvm. i shall work hard on 'em
heh
im crapping
cos im bored
lol
i want go out
but bcos of financial inability
i have to control (i rennnnnnn) -.-
cos go out cfm i will want to spend money
haas
so stay at home count money better
lmao
im crapping.crapping.crapping
argh.
im dying of boredom
lalalaas~
weehhees~

tonight gonna go esplanade eat dinner
with daddy de business partner
hahahas
he qing ke
LOL
and jie jie is out now
she has OA chinese exam today
then she go kbox
she so you qian
cannot stand
gonna steal money from her lerhs
ooppssx =x
i still owe her money
OMG
she cant get it back from me
cos im BROKE
hahahas
too bad for her
anyway she's so rich
not need return her e money le larhs
take it as halloween present or whatever larhs
LOL
deepavali or hari raya puasa present also can larhs
hahas
as long as one of the festival de present la horhs
YAY!! then lidat no need to return money lerhs
muahahas

okays.im gonna go count my cents.
lol.im so money-minded now.
GOSH.

2005-10-25T19:06:00.000-07:00

oh yarhs!
something to add =p
threw my face today
went to look for jamie at 2f
then walk back to class
entered 2g
then was wondering why so many 2g ppl in our class
then realised that it wasn't 2h
it was 2g
gosh
they kip laughing at me hao bu hao
THROW FACE!!
omg

2005-10-25T18:18:00.000-07:00

went to orchard ytd with linda ; jamie
i was chao ji late
cos linda ben lai was already late
then they come mit me at sr station
i was still late
haas
bcos i went back to slp after talking to jamie
that was around 1o
and they were supposes to mit at 11
then jiu walk around
went to wisma then to taka
and threw my face at taka
i was like looking backwards then jiu nv see in front got what
then jiu almost bang onto e wall hao bu hao
lucky turn back in turn
LOL
then jiu bought manda de b'day pressie
she says she likes it =p
she had better liked it
hello kitty things are ex- sia
then went to cine
took neoprints and went to arcade to play
okays~ fine. i admit i suck at daytona.
i kip banging on e wall hao bu hao
haas
but at least i din come in last
LMAO
then went to heeren
coming out of heeren some charity promoter approached us
or should i say JAMIE
ask us buy
then jamie kip hide behind linda say no money
and we all said no money
then linda said "no, i don't think so we want"
and i tell you
1 minute later..
this is what happened..
e guy sort of "beg" us
and then we jiu wanted to give $ 6 instead of $1o
and e most shocking thing that shocked me and jamie
was that linda (without blinking her eyes) took out a $1o note and gave it
me and jamie : stunned
after that she said it was becos his friends came over and they were..
erm.. good-looking? *pukes*
HELLOS?!?!
linda tan chiah yuen where has your taste gone to?
went over to far east
was approached by charity promoter again
but luckily im SMART
i walk away very fast
left linda and jamie stuck there
LOL
then shopped around till 6 plus
reached home
bathe ; eat dinner ; cored jamie
and went to sleep at 8.15
but was awoken by sms at 12.44
wth``
break my sleep
then sms-ed a while and went back to slp
slp till this morn.. im so damned pigg..
GOSH!!

this morn.. woke up EXTREMELY early at 6.o5
i don't usually wake upp so early you know
then while in mrt rc'v dao jamie de cor
ask me mit her cos fiona jus woke up then jiu ok lorhs
while walking from cp
i saw something chao ji disgusting
guess what?
a DEAD SQUASHED FLATTENED FROG
omg. terrible sight.
waited for jamie for so long
and then jiu walked to school
that jamie is so...
CHICKEN..
cannot stand her
kip asking me walk faster cos she scared late
LOL
can see from here that she is a GOOD student
never been late before
so unlike me
i late until im used to it already
and its nothing to be proud of
haas
i was like asking her to relac
then she was so gan chiong
0.o
cannot stand larhs.. CHICKEN..
sms-ed jm in class ask isit he nv go sch
then he at home sleeping..
stupid larhs..he blame me lorhs..
wth``
say i haii him cannot wake upp derhs..
wah laos..
who woke me upp from my sleep e night before
and he still owes me my chocolate
somemore want me treat him lunch
wait long long jiu you
blehs-
kept slping in class
haas. class is now meant for slping de mahs.
LMAO
after school
walked in e BIG rain to cp
WITHOUT umbrella
bcos jamie needed to ruch to her pri.sch class gat
wo de tian arhs
we were like drenched from head to toe?
then is like we stand still e water is will drip from our uniform de lorhs
went toilet to dry upp
but din help much
me and hx went to someone hidden from view
to squeeze e water from out uniform
ppl mus have thought we were les alright
used to hope to get sick
but not now
cos its gonna be holidays lerhs
hmmm
but actually dun really wish for holidays
cos holidays no fun
=((((

this month de sms want bao lerhs
haas
mus control liaos
im still left with 17 more days
my sms left with 2o0+ lidat only
PATHETIC
this month cfm will exceed 1o0o derhs
nvm.. =p

2005-10-22T19:11:00.000-07:00

sighs-
i don't ustd why does your words affect my mood so much?
i don't know.
im CONFUSED?
i don't wanna hurt anybody.
but i have to.
perhaps.
i need more time to sort out my feelings?

and to someone out there.
pls don't give me hope if there isn't
i don't want any false hope
saw your profile
and im thinking
do i really not stand a chance?
what am i suppose to do?
pls stop giving me all those hopes
cos i don't want to end up with nothing
can you give me the LONG term happiness i want?
i don't want to be played with again
i want eu in my life
but is it possible?
haiis`
i don't want those false hopes
i want the REAL hopes
can you give them to me?
i don't know.
perhaps being a person without feelings would be better?
sometimes i do think.
why must we born with feelings?
isn't it better if we were numbed to everything?
i have too many questions unanswered.
can someone pls tell me why.
I HATE MY WORLD.
I HATE MYSELF.

2005-10-20T19:28:00.000-07:00

sighs-
my results ish totally sarks to e limit orites
but i have myself to blame
cause i didnt study hard enough
it seems like the ppl around are all complaining of lousy results
but compared to me?
they are MUCH better already
let's see how "WELL" i did
hmmm..
english : 23/5o
well.. its always like that for paper 2
maths : 52/1o0
whatever.. ive given up on maths
chinese 47/1o0
FIRST time i failed chinese in my life orites.. =((
science : 57.5/1o0
pathetic larhs..didnt che0ng hard en0ugh
history : 57/1o0
dropped 4 grades..im pro.. x)
geog : 57.5/1o0
my geo class pao tang liao le larhs..
eng lit : 51/75
heh..to my surprise..its not bad..=))
but no way im gonna take lit next yr
dnt : i forgot =p
art : 66/1o0
i dun give a damn for art =X
SEE!! which combination do you think i can cho0se?
haas..all the marks are so PATHETIC..
even geo also.. cheong e whole night for geo and art
end upp.. kns
suan lerhs~!
i don't really give a damn for my studies anyway
dunno why isit that ppl can cry for their results
they cry after paper and after getting back e paper
i find its so pointless..??
no offence to those who cried
but its no point crying over spilt milk
you guys out there must learn from me
be optimistic..haas..
no point crying mahs
lol
if you find you really did badly then work harder next time!!
although i know i won't
and what for drop out of school?
waste time
want to drop out also i drop out first hao bu hao
i got more records then you guys
my studies are worst than you guys
so
don't give up orites~
study harder the next time..
lalalaas~

heh..i found a new person lerhs..
wahahas..
and he's online now..
LOL!! =XxX

2005-10-17T16:35:00.000-07:00

went to e gym this morn.ben lai is yue hao 9.3o mit.then end up 9.3o me and alina still at home.only jamie just left house.haas.then jamie had to roam in hg sports hall herself while waiting for us.lalalaas~i was e latest.hehex.then jiu go gym lo.alina sponsor me.hahas.thank you alina.aii sii nii le~ =))) e gym was so damned cold.then didn't really do much exercise.haas.this week train leg.next week gonna train arm.hahahas.

then ben lai afternoon(which means now) want go buy my kappa school shoes de.but then e sportslink de ppl haven't cor.which means e shoe haven't got stock.sadded`.lol.nvm.by end of this week should be have lerhs.haaas.

then now re-doing e malay culture project + changing my friendster profile + searching for new blogskins.i know how to MULTI-TASK alrights.LMAO.

2005-10-15T23:29:00.000-07:00

finally after 2 weeks of pure torture.e end-of-year exams are finally over.wahahas.i need to go and catch up on my sleep.hais.time seems to pass so fast.its like just not long ago we were still worrying about end-of-year.then now its over already.and so fast this year is going to end soon.hais.we are going to go into different class lerhs.sad.i would definitely miss 2h so much.but at least we would still meet in school.

ytd after exams jiu went pasir ris.went with jam;linda;hx;jji went home first then go mit 'em at cp.then jiu took 89 to pasir ris.had to walk a long way before reaching.then jiu ben lai want go search for e fish farm go catch fish.then cannot find.so end up we go down there de playground play.we are abit mountain tortoise. =Xthen jiu play play play.hui gu tong nian.haas.kip climbing e net thingy.ben lai i ish dowan climb derhs.i got height phobia mahx.then everybody climb then i nv climb.like extra lidat.so end up also climb.was quite fun larhs.then after that julian;ts;zy come.they go rollerblade.haas.im gonna train up my rollerblade skills too lerhs.see them rollerblade so cool nehs.them jiu rent bike lo.e bikes kip giving problems.haas.jam;hx oso got fall down.but fall down without wounds.lucky i nv fall down ehs.sia suay myself only ehs.then cos nv eat lunch jiu gastric pain.lucky linda got bring gastric pills.saved me.haas.then jiu 6 lidat then leave.reached home around 7 lidat. =))

hais.im sorry.
i dunch mean to vent my moodswings at you.
i dunch mean to treat you like that.
i will try my best nv to do that.
i will try to control my emotions.
i promise i will nv do that to you again.
dbq`

wo zong yu bu zai aii nii le.
jus erase my hateful memories.

2005-10-10T21:39:00.000-07:00

promised not to use e com for two weeks
but just can't resist e temptation
have been online a few times le
LOL
nvm.i shall not online anymore until exams are over
hmmm
don't think i will do will this time barhs
im scared of history tmr
haas.
cos my history dropped terribly
hais.
don't think i will do well for maths n lit to0
had this tw0 paper t0day
din have e m0od t0 d0
s0 i think it sucked
haas..
then after sch0ol went t0 study hist0ry
went t0 kfc first
then wen up t0 libray
c0s linda d0n't want t0 study at kfc
then had e dia0~ing incident
wth`
they kip dia0-ing l0rhs
dia0 dia0 dia0
knn larhs
then dunn0 why in e library i suddenly break down
was at first feeling very nan sh0u
then suddnly just cried
felt very much better after crying
its like i just suddenly thought back of e past
with HIM
hais.i promised never to cry
but what happened to me?
i promised to forget
but why haven't i?
hais.
erase my memories-
erase my regrets-
erase my unhappiness-
give me back my fantasy-

2005-10-03T12:39:00.000-07:00

eoy starts this wed
promised mommy that i won't use e com anymore
until exam is over
haiyos
dunno can tahan norts
2 wks without com
sian dia0..
so think this will be e las time i will be blogging until exam end barhs
hmmm
haven't really started preparing for eoy
hais
dunch wanna dissapoint my mommy
but then its like i want to study
but then im not focus
so end up study abit only
pathetic bit
mus really jia you lerhs
wanna get into history class next year
but then dunno can make it anot lo
must study study study
think must lock myself in a room
then won't get distracted
this few days kip tio mommy kp
cos she say i become lazier
and then more huai dan lerhs
so must really work real hard
prove to her then i can still study
to those having their exams soon too
good luck!! and mug hard-
haas..till here people
i will be back in..
tw0 weeks..=))
all of you take care..*

2005-09-30T22:22:00.000-07:00

hmmm..
today school was fine barhs..
ms d.t never come again..
had e first tw0 periods free
was there chatting cum learning geog..
then jiu had geog
was QUITE okay..
thou not very okay..but then SHOULD BE can pass barhs..
=X
then mt was there toking again
lmao
recess jiu stay in class do science
im guai kia =))
then jiu had maths
lucky ms tan today mood okay lerhs..
ytd she was SCARY
she threw e chair orites..
gosh..
then science..
desmond had his special delivery at 11.45 again..
hahas..ms ne0 kip making fun..
then lit..sian dia0..
but at least i got listen to what mrs.amin toking..
this few days very guai..
never even slp in class..
=)))
but then my dark eye circle coming out lerhs..
then after school jiu had history
then jiu go do dnt
im pro orites
no teachers helped me with my work..
ahahahas..=))
then got one time..
stupid lorhs..
i knock knock knock e nail into e wood
then jiu *tock* hit onto my own thumb
so pain sia
bth``
then jiu do do do until 4
went to cp
ate at kfc
then went to get a b'day present for jun jie
bought a wallet for him
blah blah blah..
such a NOT interesting day...
sian dia0..

2005-09-28T01:54:00.000-07:00

sort of F `up n0w
its n0w 1.43 and im still d0ing pr0ject
don't ustd why mus do project when its so close to exam
waste time
and also got to blame ourselves
me;hx;linda
we did last minute work once again
and im kinda pissed too
why does it seem that owaes when i do project in grps
i end up the one with the most work
i mean
for example this project
hx only contributed with 2 slides of picture
what i needed was 5 slides of picture
and linda-worst
not even a single contribuition
but cannot blame her to0
cos she got to attend wake
but its like
so unfair?
aarrgghh
i hate doing project
especially when everything is being pushed to me
and hx only seems concerned that mdm ernie would ask it from HER tmr
so F`up with her
she seems to only care about herself
have she ever thought of the one doing e project;me?
its not like i want to claim credit or what
but it seems like nobody even care?
its just so unfair
they get to relax and slp early
but ME?
still struggling here with the project
and its just some pathetic malay culture project
its a waste of my time
i don't mind not doing and getting no marks
i believe linda don't mind to0
but hx..
she HUMJI
don't dare to not do
and she is the one who wants the marks the most
but she contributed so lil' in the project
for the sake of her
i have to complete this project
SUCKER.
MELISSA ONG HONG XI YOU HAD BETTER BE GRATEFUL.

2005-09-25T21:27:00.000-07:00

i dunno what should i say
i dunch even know if im angry, sad, dissapointed or what?!
its like everytime i think of that thing
im ANGRY?!
perhaps its bc0s i still care?
im still pissed perhaps hurt by the words he said about me
but i don't want anything to happen to him
i don't know if i hate him
perhaps i shouldn't care so much
suan lerhs`
my care and concern aren't needed
hais

ytd scho0l was fine
walked with ss t0 scho0l
told him some things about ...
then e rest of e day was fine bahx
lyj walked past our class during recess
then when go find linda mommie at side gate that time
jiu meet dao him again
ahahas..dunno what went wrong with me
gave him the jia0 bin face
perhaps its bc0s of the SUCKER
and during science they all one whole group walked past our class
sucker was with them too i think
then they jiu kip sh0uting int0 our class to ms ne0
every0ne was like laughing
and if any of you n0ticed
my face was EXPRESSIONLESS
gave e jia0 bin face again
s0 pissed t0 see the sucker
after i heard of what he said about me
AARGGHHHH!!
then after sch0ol ben lai had rc duty at 5.3o
but after that change time t0 4.3o
then we put our bag at rc r0om first
then went t0 711
ben lai th0ught of buying s0mething t0 eat
but then reach le jiu dun feel like eating
s0 jus b0ught big gulp
me;hx;jamie shared
disgusting jamie had her saliva on ALL e straws
then jiu g0 back sch00l
cls jiu c0me
then after that jiu walk walk ar0und e sch0ol
then linda jiu come school
i helped hx;linda do their rc u button
hahas..im PRO..=X bec0ming e button girl lerhs..
then after that 4 plus that time sec 2s jiu fall in
im e only sec 1 there
s0 i fall in with sec 2s lo
they had changing parade
i helped them pack things
become e part-time maid in e toilet
then after that decided to fall out
cos anyway i oso down there zuo bor mahx
then jiu with hx;ym;sk
after that sec 1s jiu come lerhs
sia sueyy larhs
i zuo i/c
then kip making mistakes
gosh
must jia you lerhs
mus improve on my drills and so on
cannot stand larhs
i like getting more and more lan lerhs
must really jia you jia you!!
=))
okaes shall blog to here
tata people~
take care*